I had noticed that many of us with some sort of reproductive or thyroid autoimmune issue seem to also deal with eczema, which is also thought to be autoimmune disorder related. I have had it all my life. My most chronic spot is the back of my head, but it has found its way into my ears and onto my eyelids (ouch!) in the past. I can be very thankful that mine is a fairly mild sort. I'm curious to see how many of us with fertility issues also have eczema, so I put up my first ever poll (located on the sidebar)! Please share!!
I think, thanks to my new fatigued state, that I'm back into my depression round again. I rather liked the anger. It was very invigorating. Oh well. Part of it too is that I'm on round two (or is it three?) of "people who decided to start trying after you and are now expecting babies." The first time I experienced that, it stung, but I handled it. That group now has beautiful babes in arms from their efforts. Now most of the new group is already well on the way to delivery, with some coming up right behind them. There are no less than 5 close friends/family expecting now, and most of them were blessed very quickly upon deciding to conceive. Thank goodness almost all of them are close to me, so the sting is less. I feel like such a heel, but I've described my disgruntled attitude this way:
It's as if you're standing in a really long line at the DMV for your first license at 16. You stand patiently and do everything you can to cooperate with the people there so that you won't be delayed any longer. You repeatedly approach the window, only to be told there's another form to fill out. You obediently do so, and patiently get back in the long line. Just as you fill out what you think may be the last form, someone rushes in, knocks you down and takes your spot in line. As you lie there on the floor, you burn in frustration and jealousy.
It's weird I know, but it often really does feel like you've been shoved in line. And like I said, I feel like a total heel for having those emotions. The best I can do though, is be very honest with those close to me about them and hope they can put up with me. Thank God most of the people pregnant right now (minus Pregzilla) have been complete angels about all this despite the fact that they are dealing with their own problems. I can't thank them enough for their kindness and patience.
I DO have a fun barbecue at work tomorrow, and a really fun surprise for Thursday. So I promise the next few posts won't be so down.