The Results Episode

There are many updates to be had today. First off, yes, I am definitely leaning toward a depression phase. I'm fighting it, but there it is. With the ttc trials alone, I often feel as if I am suspended in a giant whirlpool of grief. When I'm bobbing at the top, around the perimeter, things are ok. But just one slip or push, and I swirl dramatically toward the funnel. When I'm angry, I fight the current, but when I'm depressed, I let it carry me away. The worst part is that I never seem to be able to climb onto shore.

The "push" for me this time is work. There are a lot of issues going on management-wise that just make me feel like quitting. And I love my job. I'm one of those people who can say that her profession is her passion. It's very upsetting.

So, you're probably thinking, "On with the updates already lady!" Well - I aim to please.

Thyroid
I have one small nodule on my thyroid. The endo says this is normal in people with Hashimoto's Thyroiditis and that we'll keep an eye on it. She hasn't gotten back to me about my TSH levels, but the receptionist seemed to be trying to tell me in I-can't-tell-you-cuz-I'm-a-receptionist code that everything is ok there.

Bloodwork
My second prolactin draw came back only a hair over normal, so he will monitor that as well. Everything else in the marathon miscarriage panel came back ok except for a little wonkiness with a clotting factor. (it was the nurse, so I'm not clear on it) He seems unconcerned with that. I'm thinking I may do the whole baby aspirin thing just to be on the safe side. Anyone have input on that?

Cycle
I had an ultrasound today. My ovaries are doing {big sigh} nothing, and it's cycle day 19. RE gave me the go ahead to start progesterone to bring on my period, but if I start tonight, that brings me perilously close to Christmas as my insemination date. Ah. Whatever. God knows none of us really know what's going to happen with this stuff. Maybe I'll start it tomorrow.

The protocol for next cycle is to up the letrazole dosage on CD3-7 and add an FSH injectible as a booster on cycle days 9, 10 and 11. Then we trigger with Ovidrel when needed and do the IUI. I can't say as I'm too thrilled about more needles (or the cost), but whaddya gonna do? At least we have a direction.

I've also asked them to mail me all they've got on reputable adoption agencies. There are lots of conflicting emotions there, but we'll cover that in a future post.

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