I don't know if it's a coincidence, but ever since I decided to focus on me and my relationships instead of infertility or what others think, life has gotten crazy! It's mostly crazy in a fun way, but I get really tuckered out. Thank God for Synthroid and its role in easing my exhaustion.
My last weekend was spent going to a water park (free tickets!), helping with and attending a beautiful outdoor wedding, running my usual errands and cleaning, and spending all day at a theme park with friends from up North.
As weekend eased into workdays, it didn't let up. Work has been so busy that each week goes by in a blur. Some of the people on my team are my best friends down here, and I feel like I haven't even been able to connect with them over lunch! A wonderful stress reliever though is that I used an Amazon certificate to buy Kingdom Hearts II, and it came this week! So now I'm once again drawn into a video game that feels to me very much as if I am playing a book. I love those kinds of games. I also love to watch Naruto in subtitles for that reason... it's as if I'm watching a book. But that's for another time. A wonderful tip for you all: If you are looking for a specific item, check to see if Amazon has a used item seller. You can get it for much cheaper, and it is sent to your door! I've gotten so many CD's, books, games and out of print items this way. I love that site.
This weekend I drove 2 hours to attend a lovely baby shower for a lovely friend. I've known her since elementary school and just recently hooked back up with her. Her baby is the one that made a surprise and stressful entrance into the world (hence the after baby shower), but things are looking pretty good. She's not getting off without some hardships, but overall, the baby should be relatively healthy. I can say one thing, she's ADORABLE.
In the midst of all this, Hub is attending a convention (as an artist - yay!) all weekend while we are preparing for his siblings' visit at the end of the week. The advent of break times always ramps up our visitor numbers.
As for my personal stuff, I had two days of EWCM** this cycle so far, and now my fertile signs have subsided. I've only ever had EWCM one other time, and that was the time I actually got pregnant. I'm pretty excited, and hope that this means I will ovulate. Remember though that I am not focusing on trying to conceive - just on being healthy for now.
You may also wonder what happened to talks of adoption. Well, I decided I needed to feel very centered before we seriously began that journey. I'm pleased to say that's going well. I want to finish our Unsung Lullabies support group and start reading about the emotional impacts of adoption before we begin. I'm not going into this half cocked like I did our treatments. To that end, I got Secret Thoughts of an Adoptive Mother in the mail yesterday! (again with the Amazon. :) You can be sure that I will be posting my thoughts on it once I've finished. So far, I highly recommend reading it along with Unsung Lullabies if you are thinking of adopting. The emotional issues and thoughts are very interconnected between the 2 books.
Today, I'm just vegging and recuperating. I'm also feeling a "happy things" list building again. I can't believe how good it feels to do those. I think it's almost like Oprah's "gratitude journal."
**I don't care to describe what EWCM is. Those who will care what it is will probably already know it. Suffice it to say that it means I should be in a fertile phase.