The time is swiftly approaching when I will no longer be able to take the Metformin (glucophage) or the progesterone suppositories. To be quite honest, I won't miss the suppositories at all. I don't think I really needed them all that much in the first place, and they just add to the side effects. The Metformin however, it is my savior. That little... scratch that... horse pill balanced my crazy body. It made everything work more smoothly from my cholesterol stabilizing abilities to my insulin regulation to my ovulation. It helped balance my moods, my fatigue and my life. It helped us achieve the greatest goal we ever set out to achieve.
On top of that - taking Metformin makes a PCOSer like me feel almost normal when pregnant. Statistics show that it reduces your risk of miscarriage to almost that of a regular person! I am so not used to being a regular person! I know, I know - it would probably do more harm than good to keep taking it past the 12 week mark, and that's why they stop it. But I've attached such a superstitious feeling with this drug that it makes everything all better and won't let anything bad happen. It's the equivalent to my little blue blanky with the satin trim that I still have stuffed in my closet - just in case.
But I can deal. I can trust the critter's ability to survive. I can trust my body to do its job with enough panache to deliver me a healthy baby. Sure I can. However, there's also the anxiety about going off this drug that has made me healthy. Of course I'm going to need to go back on it when it's safe to do so. I just never want to live that other unhealthy life again. It seems like a nightmare. So hopefully it won't feel like a nightmare until I can restart it. But you know what else is a nightmare? ADJUSTING TO METFORMIN. And now I'm going to have to do that process all over again - and just when I got salads back! It's enough to make any sane girl swoon. It's definitely all incredibly worth it. But that doesn't mean I'm not going to have nail chewing anxiety over the process. At least the Synthroid will stay. God bless Synthroid.