Thanks to all of you who reply with such wonderful support. It means the world to me when trying to muddle through all these new, amazing and sometimes challenging experiences! Being E's mother is the most important job I've ever tried to do, so obviously I want to do it as well as possible. Tonight went much better. After one aborted try when I realized he hadn't finished his milk because it was too cold, we rectified the situation and he went down easily without any fuss. Hopefully tonight will be much more restful for him, and we'll get him to gain the weight he needs.